Sunday, January 22, 2012
Life is Changing
Stuck between floors, that is how my life has seemed for many years. The elevator is moving again and it feels so exciting! I can't wait to see what floor we will stop on next. My ex- husband and I hadn't seen each other for 5 years but have been talking on the phone for the last 6 months We've been divorced 11 years.. Well, we no longer have to do that anymore, he has moved in and we are trying to become a family again. If you had told me a year ago this was going to take place I would have laughed in your face and shook my head" noway" but it's happening and my 3 boys and I couldn't be happier! God is good all the time but boy, He really out did Himself with this one!! My boys and I have prayed for this every day for the past 11 years even when I was still angry and hurt and didn't really believe it would happen! It;s so nice to come home to someone you love at the end of a long hard day at work! I had forgotten how good it felt just to share a cup of coffee and a conversation about trivial things of the day. I had forgotten how much a card game with those you love could bring laughter and joy and a sense of belonging. I had been on auto pilot side tracked from a life with meaning and just doing what had to be done to make it to the next day. I am so grateful that we have the capacity to forgive sins of the past and to "start over" even mid game and roll the dice again knowing that no matter how the game ends we are all together and God has us in His hands leading us back to where we got sidetracked in the first place!! Life is changing in the Borders household and only God knows what the next floor will hold but I can't wait to see where it takes us!!